Haven't blogged in forever.  I'm going a little nuts right now.  I have submitted a bunch of applications at places.  And even though I it has been my intention all along, I really haven't worked on my resume. 

Everyone who knows what was going on is telling me I made the right decision.  And I frankly, I don't need their approval.  Thats why I quit.  But now I have this overwhelming feeling of doom.  I did it all wrong.  I should've made sure that I had another job.  I was not adult about it.  As an adult, sometimes we  are required to do things we don't like.  I feel like crying.  I don't know, what we are going to do financially.   I want to keep my mind occupied but housework has never been good at keeping my mind from wondering.  I tried reading but after I read the same paragraph fifteen times and kept on derailing.  All I keep thinking is of all the applications and resumes I sent out once upon a time and how I kept on not getting hired.  

I know I'm probably blowing this out of proportion in my head because its so recent.  Or maybe not.  The economy sucks and one of the worse places for job hunting is NYC.   I really don't want to go back to counting pennies.  I mean with me working, we weren't in the greatest financial situation either but it wasn't neccessary for us to have an hour long conversation and fenagling of numbers every time we made a purchase.  ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

It'll be ok.  I hope.  I really hope.