well hello there non readers

So I started doing Fly Lady again.  I figured this time will be the charm.  Things I have learned about it this time around.  I really am not as disorganized as I thought.   While my house looked like a giant mess a good portion of the time, at least to me.  It never really was that bad though.  I am tooting my own horn only because I am on day 7 and my house is practically spotless.  Now I am just fighting the procrastinator in me.  The house really isn't bad at all so there is no need for me to do anything right now.  I'll just wait till it gets messy.  That is the one thought that usually messes me up. My dumb need to feel so overwhelmed with what I'm doing in order for me to be worth doing at all.  Does it make it sense?  No.  It doesn't.  AT ALL!  Why would anyone do this to themselves?  Yet, I always play the same game.  sigh

I want a laptop or tablet or something.  Usually by the time I have five seconds to sit at the computer I am just to tired to sit on that uncomfortable  chair.  I want to be able to just sit in my bed comfortable and relaxed.  Not on a hard chair.  I keep avoiding the internet because of it.  And I keep wondering how it was that I used to sit here for so long all day.  It makes no sense to me. 

I did something to my knees last week.  Well my left one.  I still don't know what.  All I know is that it has been hurting me a lot.  I haven't been able to walk right since last Wednesday.  So the added stress has messed up my shin, my calf, my thigh and my foot.  As well as messing up my right knee.  Now don't get me wrong, I have had knee pain for years.  They have been bothering me since I was about 9 but nothing like this.  Usually, I just deal with if but if they become real bad I take some Motrin which takes the edge off.  UMMMM, my doctor has recommended against that and all other joint pain meds for the time being.   All the ant-inflammitory (sp?)pain meds fall under a drug classification of NSAIDs.  They are known for causing attacks.  And being that I just got out of the 3 day hospital stay for inability to breath , my DR. felt it was in my best interest to take  some tylenol and just take it easy.  Knee pain is better than not being able to breath or something.  I'm just scared of what this pain is going to become when I'm completely off the steroids.  If steroids is what they give a lot of people for knee problems and I am this bad.   What the fuck is going to happen to me by the end of this week?  I can barely walk as it is?  Kill me. 

Alright I have to get moving and try and sort some laundry.  I am seriously procrastinating it though.  Last time I tried sorting laundry I had to go to the hospital.  hahahahahahaha I need a maid.